Life gets in the way!

I've woken up this morning so tired I feel that I can hardly move. My sleep was badly interruped last night so I'm just exhausted. Yet 1/2 a glass into my morning green smoothie and I'm already staring to feel a bit more human. My husband came home from work yesterday with a propane burn on his body. He delivers propane for his job, and yesterday they had an accident. So his tossing and turning and discomfort keep me from sleeping well. However he's doing fine and I'm sure he will completely recover.

I've been on a yo-yo for about week with my diet. I'm still doing my green drinks and loving them. I can't imagine life without them. They make me feel so good! However it's the third meal of the day that I've been rollercoastering on. My kids have been cooking stuff way to good for me to pass up. However I've modified them so that they are still vegetarian, they just are not raw. So here is what I've learned from that little exercise.

1st- That I can't seem to loose weight while eating the vegetarian lifestyle. I tend to eat to much bread which I love. I love whole wheat bread and it's a huge temptation. However Josh's vegetarian pizzas on the whole wheat crust were amazing. When I eat this way I tend to over eat. Probably because I'm not getting enough of the nutrients that my body is needing. So I just keep nibbling and nibbling. As opposed to the raw way of eating. Once I eat I feel great and I really have no need to continue grazing on things. So there is much less snacking!

2nd- I learned that I can turn to the vegetarian lifestyle once I get my weight off. I can still enjoy those delicious things in moderation. I've not really gained much but I've certainly not taken any off. I thought that was comforting to know that I can choose that option once I've gotten my excess weight off.

3rd - I've been doing a book fair in my home for our homeschool network for the past week and 1/2. All my books and journals were moved from their normal location and I lost them in the shuffle. Hopefully I will find them again today. Because the thing that I have found is that I need constant nourishment to keep me going. Not the food kind of nourishment but the knowledge kind. I need to be reminded how amazing going raw can be for me. I find that if I read a little inspiration every day that goes a long way. The raw books and websites of people who have done this is so inspiring. So reading, sharing, talking, emailing, blogging... etc... Really helps to keep me on track.

4th- Journaling is key to me loosing weight. By being able to write my thoughts and feelings into my journal helps me a great deal. I usually make it a part of my morning scripture study. This really helps me to center myself for the day. I'm able to recommit to myself my goals and reasons for doing what I'm doing. As I write this my wonderful Father is in surgery for his heart. He is a wonderful man and I love him dearly. Yet I know that many of the problems that he has had over the past 7 years is due to his being severely overweight. I often find that I have many things in common with my Dad health wise. I know that if I don't get this weight off and keep it off I can be in his shoes some day.

I have to much to live for... to many books to read... to many more grandbabies to play with... to many places I want to see... to many things I still want to be able to do. So since I can't find my journal yet either... I'm here to rededicate myself and center myself this morning. I'm back to my 90% raw. I don't know why I'm so dense and so slow to learn. I feel better when I eat that way and I really do have goals to meet. I can't think of anything more wonderful than to be 200 lbs or less when my son David leaves on his mission. So it's back to work feeling great!!! As always I pray that the Lord will help me on this journey. I know I can't do it without his help, guidance, inspiration and support.
:)