Life gets in the way!

I've woken up this morning so tired I feel that I can hardly move. My sleep was badly interruped last night so I'm just exhausted. Yet 1/2 a glass into my morning green smoothie and I'm already staring to feel a bit more human. My husband came home from work yesterday with a propane burn on his body. He delivers propane for his job, and yesterday they had an accident. So his tossing and turning and discomfort keep me from sleeping well. However he's doing fine and I'm sure he will completely recover.

I've been on a yo-yo for about week with my diet. I'm still doing my green drinks and loving them. I can't imagine life without them. They make me feel so good! However it's the third meal of the day that I've been rollercoastering on. My kids have been cooking stuff way to good for me to pass up. However I've modified them so that they are still vegetarian, they just are not raw. So here is what I've learned from that little exercise.

1st- That I can't seem to loose weight while eating the vegetarian lifestyle. I tend to eat to much bread which I love. I love whole wheat bread and it's a huge temptation. However Josh's vegetarian pizzas on the whole wheat crust were amazing. When I eat this way I tend to over eat. Probably because I'm not getting enough of the nutrients that my body is needing. So I just keep nibbling and nibbling. As opposed to the raw way of eating. Once I eat I feel great and I really have no need to continue grazing on things. So there is much less snacking!

2nd- I learned that I can turn to the vegetarian lifestyle once I get my weight off. I can still enjoy those delicious things in moderation. I've not really gained much but I've certainly not taken any off. I thought that was comforting to know that I can choose that option once I've gotten my excess weight off.

3rd - I've been doing a book fair in my home for our homeschool network for the past week and 1/2. All my books and journals were moved from their normal location and I lost them in the shuffle. Hopefully I will find them again today. Because the thing that I have found is that I need constant nourishment to keep me going. Not the food kind of nourishment but the knowledge kind. I need to be reminded how amazing going raw can be for me. I find that if I read a little inspiration every day that goes a long way. The raw books and websites of people who have done this is so inspiring. So reading, sharing, talking, emailing, blogging... etc... Really helps to keep me on track.

4th- Journaling is key to me loosing weight. By being able to write my thoughts and feelings into my journal helps me a great deal. I usually make it a part of my morning scripture study. This really helps me to center myself for the day. I'm able to recommit to myself my goals and reasons for doing what I'm doing. As I write this my wonderful Father is in surgery for his heart. He is a wonderful man and I love him dearly. Yet I know that many of the problems that he has had over the past 7 years is due to his being severely overweight. I often find that I have many things in common with my Dad health wise. I know that if I don't get this weight off and keep it off I can be in his shoes some day.

I have to much to live for... to many books to read... to many more grandbabies to play with... to many places I want to see... to many things I still want to be able to do. So since I can't find my journal yet either... I'm here to rededicate myself and center myself this morning. I'm back to my 90% raw. I don't know why I'm so dense and so slow to learn. I feel better when I eat that way and I really do have goals to meet. I can't think of anything more wonderful than to be 200 lbs or less when my son David leaves on his mission. So it's back to work feeling great!!! As always I pray that the Lord will help me on this journey. I know I can't do it without his help, guidance, inspiration and support.
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Yay I'm a Size 18!!!

I'm so sorry that it's been so long since I've posted. I've been in charge of a family reunion and it was just a ton of work. So I've just not had a chance to post as much as I would like. The other problem is that I've been teaching my kids to blog and now they all want the computer! LOL... However the good news is that I can get into my size 18 clothes again! Yay!!! I can't believe it, because I thought I would need to be a few pounds lighter than I am. I can't get into everything yet, some things are still so tight that I wouldn't wear them. However I know that I can be comfortable in all of my 18's before the month is out. It's been a ton of fun going through my old clothes and finding things that I can wear. Even after a family reunion and a week long of book fair I am still feeling great! The hardest thing about the reunion was not getting the fresh veggies the way I'm used to. I put on 5 lbs while gone for 3 days. Very discouraging but the good news is I have it all off now. I'm on my way back down the scale again and that is what really counts.

My Mom made us a wonderful Sunday Dinner which I over indulged on. I ate, but I still felt hungry... so I ate more and I still felt hungry. After leaving there I was discussing it with my dear husband, asking him why I over ate when I haven't done it in months. Why would I keep eating when I felt full? Very wisely he said it was probably because my body was still trying to get the nutrients that it's used to. After thinking about it I'm sure that he was right. Because the majority of the meal (mostly comfort food) was dead and cooked. It was a great typical Sunday dinner and wonderful to eat and visit with family. So I realized that a great deal of the food we over eat on is due to lack of nutrients. I feel like such a dummy but it was such a good lesson to learn. So I guess it was worth the weight gain to learn and understand that simple thing. I'm fat because I wasn't smart enough to give my body the right nutrients go run on. I also have to apologize to my children. Because I've done the same thing my mother did, and I'm sure it was something her mother did, and her grandmother did and her great grandmother did. I've used food for comfort, for stress, for celebration, for everything but for nutrition and ultimate health. I'm learning late in life, but better late then never.
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